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16 January 2008 @ 09:49 pm
 
  So, I am going to JM tomorrow. I am really, really, reaaaaally afraid of how things will turn out: I want him to be nice & fun to talk with. I don't want him to be as rude as he had been last time. I so don't know what to do, I forgot how to act with him. Or, did i? GOOOODDD! Maybe I shouldn't go.. But Kristina & Valerie are going too and they seemed happy to go, but they don't have to impress R; or to talk to him anyway. Ahh, I don't know what to do, I'm gonna hyperventilate if I keep stressing and worrying about that...
  I know what would Mrs. Gilbert say. She would say to take a deep breath and to relax, that I am not responsible of him being either or not in a good mood. He doesn't know. 
  Amylie said he was happy, lately. I should not worry, really. But it is stronger than me, I just can't help it. I'm going to wake up too early on tomorrow, so it'll just get worst. Ahhh, help me someone... Maybe he's happy with Amylie but won't with me? I want to talk to him like we did last time with Kristina, it was awesome. It helped me go through the first half of the first semester. It didn't go well for the second half and look how I've been for about 2 or 3 weeks. And now I need to go though the second semester. An awful semester with a crappy timetable and full or work. And if he's mean & bitchy, i don't know what will happen with me. Oh, I need him to be kind to me... Pleaaaase!!!! 
  My hair looked good today, I hope it'll be the same tomorrow. What will he think about my new almost-blond hair? Will he think I'm trying to do the same as M.? Oh, God, I hope not!!! I had a dream about her last night, btw, that was funny. Maybe it means something? Ahhh, shut up. 
  I am definitely shutting up now. 
  G'night. 
  I. xx
 
 
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: silence - delerium ft. sarah mclauchlin
 
 
 
rust_n_stardust on September 17th, 2009 11:35 am (UTC)
Hiya, I saw you added my icon journal & just wanted to let you know I've recently moved to the community neuroshare. I'll be deleting this account soon so I'd appreciate if you follow me at the new address, thanks! =)
(Sorry about commenting out of nowhere, I exceeded my message limit. x_x)